I cannot seem to wake up. Every day is the same. My alarm goes off and I find myself in a groggy cloud of blurry need to sleep longer. I get 7-8 hours a night. I am not sure what's up! I have determined one thing, however. I believe I truly suffer from S.A.D. or Seasonal Affective Disorder. We have had some nice sunny days on and off lately and I always seem to feel better, more motivated on those days. On the gray days I walk around in a fog. I do get things done, but slowly. I am not sure how to fix this other than moving to a sunnier place! Brittany wants to take me tanning. She is certain it helps her. My skin is in bad enough shape from growing up in Mesa! I am not sure I want to add to it!
In other less-than-exciting news...Today is my annual gynecological exam. I love my doctor. He sits and listens to me in his comfy office before I get to wear the paper gown! I don't really feel like talking about my life while wearing a paper gown! But what will I say today?
I am sorry I did not go in for my mammogram this last year. You see, the one the year before hurt like no other! I have had numerous mammo tests and none have ever come close to the last one! The words, busrting and exploding come to mind. I hurt for days afterward! Yes, there is some anxiety there.
I am sorry I did not go to the hospital lab and get my blood test last year. I couldn't seem to get out of bed!
Gray skies make me S.A.D. What can you DO about it Dr. M.? Hmmm?
Yes, I know I have put on weight since last year. I cannot seem to get myself moving. I promise, the first warm sunny morning I will be out there walking!
Am I happy? Mostly. Just don't ask before my morning shower!
Is it my age? Don't tell me!!
I will let you know what he says!